I wonder if the dress code at work would allow me to put a paper sack over my head and wear a sign that says, "DON'T WANNA TALK, I'M GRIEVING."

Sure would be nice.

I don't mind being back at work, I just feel deeply antisocial. When people get used to people with big smiles and effervescent personalities, they come to expect it. Right now, I just want to be the total opposite of that.

Then again, it's good to know that people care. I'll look at it that way. I guess it would be worse if nobody noticed that I'm not the usual happy-go-lucky "me" lately. I'll try to remember that every time I feel like I need to force a smile. I don't think they expect that of me, I think I expect that of me... [quit that, NiNi].